Bored!

If there is one thing I would like in my life it would be peace of mind, balance and harmony. Okay, I guess that’s 3 things. But they are all inter-related. I had no idea that this adulthood thing would suck so much. Not that childhood was a piece of cake either. I think I would still trade this life for that. Still, no matter how many bitter and cynical warnings I got from my parents and their extended spouses, there is nothing that prepares you for the ultimate joke which is adulthood.

I know I have too much time on my hands but what else is it that I’m supposed to do if I can’t get a job? I probably could get something mindless and retail at the Mall O’Rama if I wanted to lower my self-esteem more than it is already. I joined a gym I can’t afford, to work with a trainer who in one lesson has now rendered me incapacitated. Now I’m cranky AND housebound. And now it’s starting to pour rain. I should just call it a day and get drunk-with me still in my pajamas from Saturday and it being Monday afternoon and all.

The scary thing-I’m not depressed. Just bored.